It's that time again...

It's that time again. Time for maturity and spiritual growth! I am learning so much about myself through fasting and sacrifice! Good and bad.... But again, it's that time!!!

Trials-trials

This week is kicking my butt the devil is at work on me!!!! Man is he working:( he's attacking my urges, my desires, my weaknesses, my relationships:( he making me push away the ones I need to draw near he's making me want to draw near the ones whom I should push away! I'm feeling like I'm breaking like I'm truly at war. I'm hurting people who don't deserve it! This week idk what it is but it's coming on strong ladies!!!! Major stuff! Please pray for me!!!!

Half way

2 weeks down... 2 weeks to go! It's crazy I don't feel like my fast is serving its purpose I feel as if I have became busy and swamped and haven't lost lbs or focused in on the Father anymore than usual?! Idk.... I'm trying and things haven't been much of a challenge except chocolate:( ughhhhhhh

Amen!!!

in every way. Offer yourself as a role model of good actions. Show integrity, seriousness, and a sound message that is above criticism when you teach, so that any opponent will be ashamed because they won’t find anything bad to say about us. (Titus 2:7, 8 CEB)

Daily readings-noted from my readings today, motivation/inspiration;)

I must go on boasting. Although there is nothing to be gained, I will go on to visions and revelations from the Lord. I know a man in Christ who fourteen years ago was caught up to the third heaven. Whether it was in the body or out of the body I do not know–God knows. And I know that this man–whether in the body or apart from the body I do not know, but God knows– was caught up to paradise. He heard inexpressible things, things that man is not permitted to tell. I will boast about a man like that, but I will not boast about myself, except about my weaknesses. Even if I should choose to boast, I would not be a fool, because I would be speaking the truth. But I refrain, so no one will think more of me than is warranted by what I do or say.  To keep me from becoming conceited because of these surpassingly great revelations, there was given me a thorn in my flesh, a messenger of Satan, to torment me. Three times I pleaded with the Lord to take it away from me. But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ's power may rest on me. That is why, for Christ's sake, I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties. For when I am weak, then I am strong.  I have made a fool of myself, but you drove me to it. I ought to have been commended by you, for I am not in the least inferior to the “super‑apostles,” even though I am nothing. The things that mark an apostle–signs, wonders and miracles–were done among you with great perseverance. How were you inferior to the other churches, except that I was never a burden to you? Forgive me this wrong!  Now I am ready to visit you for the third time, and I will not be a burden to you, because what I want is not your possessions but you. After all, children should not have to save up for their parents, but parents for their children. So I will very gladly spend for you everything I have and expend myself as well. If I love you more, will you love me less? Be that as it may, I have not been a burden to you. Yet, crafty fellow that I am, I caught you by trickery! Did I exploit you through any of the men I sent you? I urged Titus to go to you and I sent our brother with him. Titus did not exploit you, did he? Did we not act in the same spirit and follow the same course?  Have you been thinking all along that we have been defending ourselves to you? We have been speaking in the sight of God as those in Christ; and everything we do, dear friends, is for your strengthening. For I am afraid that when I come I may not find you as I want you to be, and you may not find me as you want me to be. I fear that there may be quarreling, jealousy, outbursts of anger, factions, slander, gossip, arrogance and disorder. I am afraid that when I come again my God will humble me before you, and I will be grieved over many who have sinned earlier and have not repented of the bimpurity, sexual sin and debauchery in which they have indulged. (2 Corinthians 12:1-21 NIV84) Now I am ready to visit you for the third time, and I will not be a burden to you, because what I want is not your possessions but you. After all, children should not have to save up for their parents, but parents for their children. So I will very gladly spend for you everything I have and expend myself as well. If I love you more, will you love me less? Be that as it may, I have not been a burden to you. Yet, crafty fellow that I am, I caught you by trickery! Did I exploit you through any of the men I sent you? (2 Corinthians 12:14-17 NIV84) So, because you are lukewarm–neither hot nor cold–I am about to spit you out of my mouth. (Revelation 3:16 NIV84) Because of the increase of wickedness, the love of most will grow cold, but he who stands firm to the end will be saved.  Wherever there is a carcass, there the vultures will gather. (Matthew 24:12, 13, 28 NIV84) For it is commendable if a man bears up under the pain of unjust suffering because he is conscious of God. But how is it to your credit if you receive a beating for doing wrong and endure it? But if you suffer for doing good and you endure it, this is commendable before God. (1 Peter 2:19, 20 NIV84) Why should any living man complain when punished for his sins? (Lamentations 3:39 NIV84)

Ok ladies it is official that crap (sorry no other word would cover it) we put in our bodies is JUST that!!!! Stuck at work starving so I was defeated I ate a dang milky way and a slice of pizza that had for snack:((( this girl feels like well crap! I feel soooo sick!!! Like really!!!!! So day 6 has defeated me:( on the chocolate part but I'm back, at it tomorrow:(

Be consciously focused!

Good morning warriors;) "The key to success is to focus our conscious mind on the things we desire, not things we fear" Now go forth consciously and conquer!!! Takin no losses!!! As Autumn and Angie both said "LEGGGGO!"